[Nor is he kidding himself about a time when any of this will feel comfortable. If anything, it'll only get harder to talk about the longer he waits. The more it fades into the background as part of some other life, only to jump up every now and then and grab hold of him unexpectedly, send him reeling. No, he should talk about it now. Then she won't be taken by surprise when he loses his mind later.]
It was all... so much worse than I ever expected.
Did you even think that'd be possible? Everybody here always acted like he wasn't... Like he wasn't anything. Like he was somebody you could just take out, get rid of, no problem.
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[Nor is he kidding himself about a time when any of this will feel comfortable. If anything, it'll only get harder to talk about the longer he waits. The more it fades into the background as part of some other life, only to jump up every now and then and grab hold of him unexpectedly, send him reeling. No, he should talk about it now. Then she won't be taken by surprise when he loses his mind later.]
It was all... so much worse than I ever expected.
Did you even think that'd be possible? Everybody here always acted like he wasn't... Like he wasn't anything. Like he was somebody you could just take out, get rid of, no problem.
But he's so -
[Jesse's voice catches and he swallows.]
He's so evil.