[To tell or not to tell - what the fuck was wrong with Lisbeth? She has people pulling her in every direction about this situation and they shouldn't be. Arya was right - when the fuck did she start doing what people told her to do? Even though Nill wasn't Jesse's greatest fan, Lisbeth realizes she has the right to know. If she wants to grieve with other people instead of keeping it all inside, those two can go fuck themselves. It was hard enough keeping it a secret from Anne until Saul told her and it's difficult to look Ellie in the eyes whenever she sees her, even if she was fourteen.]

I promised Saul and Steph I wouldn't tell anyone but fuck it, they already announced it on the network: Jesse's gone from Exsilium. But what they won't tell you is--

[Lisbeth pauses. She's still for a moment as if she's spacing out. Soon, though, her eyes drift up to the ceiling as she sighs shakily. She can even get the words out of her mouth.

Overdose is all she can think.]